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Today I finally posted my first "Nirvana in Fire" story. I really needed some emotional catharsis after watching the drama, which I binged in a week and which left me with some sort of Stockholm Syndrome. I love ~~and hate~~ it so much, but I had so many needs that just were not fulfilled in the end, and so it didn't take long until I couldn't resist. Jingyan needed some goddamn hugs, and I was gonna provide them. So this fic was born. Working title: For Hug's Sake!

Return of the Cicada
Pairing: Lín Shū | Méi Chángsū | Sū Zhé/Xiāo Jǐngyǎn
Wordcount: 6741
Rating: Teen
Tags: Canon Divergence, Jingyan Finds Out, Hurt/Comfort, Pining, UST, Snark, ALL THE HUGS, Feelings, Friends to Lovers

Summary:
For thirteen years, Jingyan has locked his emotions deep in his heart and carried them with him like shards of a life broken beyond repair. But when Mei Changsu arrived in Liang, slowly but mercilessly, hope clawed its way back into his soul. Maybe Jingyan's crazy, but after the battle at Mount Jiu An is won, he's more certain than ever that his suspicions are true, and he realizes there's only one way to look behind Mei Changsu's mask: to rip it off.

Set between episodes 44 and 45.

Of course, that wasn't going to be enough in the end. And now I'm writing a whole fix-it triology, because of course I do.

So that's where your Sunday Six come in:

“Do you always have to act like a water buffalo—?”

“I might be a water buffalo, but at least I’m not a coward!”

“Coward? I’m asking you to let me go—”

“Yes. You’re asking me to let you go, so that you can die the death of a hero instead of staying by my side in the role of a strategist where you’ll actually be useful. Where I need you to rule this country you have foisted on me. But that would be too much to ask, wouldn't it? To swallow your pride and get over yourself?”